watching #LadyOscar #larosedeversaille 🌹 #childhoodmemories #frenchrevolution #MarieAntoinette 👑
enjoying a couple of days at #homehome away from work and stressful days.
😈 #givemethestregth to #notslapping people that sit in our (not their) office talking regardless to our efforts of focussing on writing 😑
Take a look at @greeneurydice‘s Tweet: https://twitter.com/greeneurydice/status/695584557974867968?s=09
well, I just texting him. told him, I need time to rethink the whole situation with not seeing him or talking to him, that I need to figure out my feelings and that it feels like he’s not interested anymore. I’m not sure whether I would like to have an answer or not… It’s not that I suddenly don’t care anymore, but it won’t make a difference concerning my feelings and confusion. No matter what he’ll answer, he’s still have a continent away and he just took up a temporary position, even if he doesn’t know what’s next, who knows how long temporary is? And furthermore there’s still his fiancée… I don’t ask him about her or their situation cause it’s not my business, so I don’t know for sure, but I guess they’re still engaged, at least her cover photo on facebook is a picture of him and her! so, what the hell… there’s nothing I can do anymore! That’s life!
Is he serious?? finally I got an answer and what is he saying? cute as always, BUT no apology, nothing like that, just talking about how stressful the first days at work have been. yah ok, I see, but is it to much to ask for just ONE message? I don’t think so, if he wants to tell me or to read my message he would find a few minutes to do this, right?? I guess I need to take some time and think about it. I really really like him, but he’s so far away and if he’s not even texting regularly, it just CAN’T work. And after 3 months now, I need to admit that I need and want more. I just would need him here, next to me, if I had a bad day or if I don’t feel well, damn I want to spend time with him! And since this isn’t possible I think I should break contact, cos it’s starting to hurt more and more! Don’t know if I can do it…. I need time. I don’t want to jump to conclusions.
no sign of life for over 24 hours. Again he doesn’t even open/read the message, again it feels like he’s not interested anymore…. I don’t know, what to think. He’s still ill and maybe he’s having high fever again and sleeping the whole day! If it’s that way ok… I understand, but actually it’s his own fault. He shouldn’t have gone to work whilst being ill/having fever! Now… What shall I think?? Should I be worried because of his health? Or should I just be annoyed?? I guess I’ll have to wait for a message and after reading it, I can decide whether I’m still peeved or if I need to rethink my reaction!
even if it’s not easy sometimes, the back of my phone now reminds my everytime I look at it 💚
to all of you! I hope you’re spending time with your beloved ones if so enjoy it, unfortunately not everyone is as lucky! I, myself, am missing a very special one. All my thoughts are about him and hoping I’ll see him again soon. My Prince Charming is about 2000 km away enjoying the bone-chilling cold of Lapland doing cross skiing! Please cross your fingers and wish me luck, so I’ll see him soon. I miss him so much, it hurts 💖
hug and kiss your dear loved ones and show them how much you love them, not only today but every single day, each day is precious and what’s most important: MAKE THEM SMILE 😊
Ms Green Eurydice 